I saw the sign. It came from an event that was small and insignificant in itself, but it reminded me of the single most profound thing in life: that God loves me. I am sharing this because it excites me when events that seem extraordinary occur, and I think whatever your beliefs, everyone can find some value in an experience like this.
For me personally, I have a solid faith in God. I could talk about it for a long time, but I feel like it deserves a blog of its own. Tonight my roommate mentioned that she had just started going to Bible study and was getting excited about reconnecting with her faith. I thought it was cute that she was bringing this back into her life, but I never for a second thought about myself and how we all must continuously go through this effort no matter where we are in our faith. She mentioned that her Bible study was talking about the Spirit living in you, and it was a concept she was just starting to grasp. She said she finally started getting the concept of remembering that God is always in your life when right after her Bible study, her brother (who has a strong faith) called her. She was touched by this event because her brother rarely reaches out to talk to her due to a large difference in age.
I was listening to her story, but not really trying to understand the significance the event had to her. Quite honestly I was also more captivated by my dinner I was eating, Pei Wei's Dan Dan noodle bowl, because I had just gotten back from a grueling day of work and airport traveling. I heard her words, but didn't really acknowledge the spirituality of her experience. Just as I finished dinner, I reached in for my fortune cookie. I actually throw away my fortune cookies most of the time without opening them because I just don't really care for them. For some reason today, I thought "what the heck," and I dug right in.
I didn't even care about reading the fortune, but I apathetically looked at the catchy saying. Then I was floored. The fortune read something that directly spoke to the one goal that has been burning on my heart for the past several months. Sure fortunes are always generic and say things that you want to hear, but this one even mentioned a timeline of achieving the goal exactly when I wanted to achieve it. The wording of the fortune seemed to personally speak to my specific goal and though it was short I felt like the words used in this fortune hinted at several different meanings relevant to my life personally. I know skeptics out there could point to several different reasons to convince me that this was not a message from God, but because I do have faith in His presence in my life, I cannot separate an event like this from my beliefs. If signs from God were blatant, life wouldn't be so confusing.
Before I tell you the reasons why I think this is a sign of God in my life, I want to preface by telling you that I'm not going to tell you what the fortune said. :) This is partly because I am not ready to talk about this until (and if) any concrete progress towards my goal materializes and partly because I don't think it is completely important in conveying my main point in this story. There is a greater story out there to tell, and the story of my personal goal is much less important than the fact that God does love us and if you open your heart and your eyes you will see it too in the smallest of things because life is made of the smallest of things.
This is what I will say....this particular goal is something that has been building in the back of my mind for several years. I can think of many significant moments in my life during this time period where my desire for this goal was building. I honestly have never wanted anything as much as I have wanted this. In the past few months particularly, it has gotten to a point where I can't ignore it. I have often talked about my difficulty in being able to tell the difference between my selfish desires and God's plan for me. I have looked for explicit signs and never really looked into my heart. It wasn't until a friend pointed out to me that if it has consumed my thoughts for the past several years, that it must be God moving my heart in that direction. Since that conversation I have already started attempting to make my dream a reality. The fortune cookie I feel like was not quite a sign as much as it was a gift from God. It made me smile, gave me confidence in my dreams, and I really feel like it shows how much He loves us and tries to show us in even the smallest of ways. If you look at the Bible, God finds humble ways to show us He loves us, and it is not always the grand gesture you are expecting. Nonetheless, this was perfect for me, evidence that He is all knowing.
I hope this does not turn those of you who do not share my faith away. I think everyone can appreciate that there are those touching moments in life that you can't always explain why it impacted you. These events are always different for everyone, and can range from the tiniest to the biggest of events. I will keep you updated in the future regarding my dream :) I don't know what the future will hold, but I do know pursuing this is the right thing for me, whether or not it works out.
Stay tuned for my next blog posts.....some pretty hilarious stuff has been happening to me!
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